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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 02:25

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Who then, do I blame.?

But, we were locked up after school.

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I was writing from the time i was a small child.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Why does my narcissistic ex told me that he f*cked and sleep with other woman and then at the end says that it also happened because of me?

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

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For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

This is how, and why children get BPD.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

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He was dying to do it , i knew.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

As i do to all so called friends.?

How far does good behavior take you in a prison?

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

She loved him until the end.

How do you fight the push and pull (manipulation) tactic if you want to win him?

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

She was in good health!

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Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

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But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

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Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I am skinny, I have been doing 100 pushups a day for more than a month and am seeing very few results, everything is so unfair, I workout more than anyone I know and am still skinny, why cant I build muscle?

My family never makes their pension either.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

But ive been too sick for many years..

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With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

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I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

How do flat Earthers explain the existence of other spherical planets?

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

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19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

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His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Would this be the day?

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

It was going to be , some day.

We all went to grammer schools

My life is so biszare .

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

She married twice! .

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

She wouldn,t have been !

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I write beautiful poetry .

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Especially a lifetime of it.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I don,t even have a pension.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Put me off passion for life!!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I was seconnd youngest,

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

(And it was in our own minds.)

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I was very sick at this time too.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I will be 64.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

This is soul school!.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I waited trembling.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Comes on , in middle age.

I could never make a relationship work though!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Why did i forgive my father ?

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

They are buried together, in the same grave..

He resisted the act ,that day.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

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I was scared of men, in general

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Was to survive, this bastard.

I said to her

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Ive learnt so much.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

So whats the point in blame.

We were not on the streets..

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

When she asked me how she looked .

But it wasn’t much.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

One cannot live in the past .

I know ,a lot about trauma.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

What did i know ?

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

She found it foreign!.

So, i spoilt her more .

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I never cut or harmed myself..

I think the readers, may guess!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

And i lived it daily.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

He knew the spot.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I have no regrets .

Im still living with it.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

All the time i was locked up.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I was 9 years of age.